Senior year doesn’t get easier after getting college acceptance letters

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As college acceptance letters are rolling in for Accolade feature editor Lira Jeong, she is struggling to figure out what major to settle on. Art by Accolade assistant graphics editor Karen Lee

Lira Jeong

“Congratulations! We are pleased to offer you admission …”

As I was reading this on March 7, I sighed with relief. I finally received the assurance that I have the option of going to a college of my choice. Unfortunately, all the anxiety and stress didn’t disappear after one letter.

As a senior, I constantly wonder if I will get into the other 12 colleges I applied for, and I still have an itching of uneasiness in the back of my mind.

I realize one of the reasons for my anxiety relates to the whirling of questions in my mind. What am I majoring in? What career do I want to pursue? My answers are always changing, and having an indecisive personality doesn’t help, either.

In the first two years of my high school experience, I had a whole plan. I knew I wanted to be a nurse because of my mom’s influence. She wanted to be a nurse, too, but couldn’t fulfill her dream because she couldn’t afford to go to college.

I loved the flexibility of the job. I could work as a registered nurse while also being able to study to earn a higher position like a nurse practitioner.

As I became more exposed to the thousands of jobs out in the world by talking with my friends and teachers throughout high school, my passion for that career lost its charm. I realized that I should make serious decisions about my future quickly instead of listening to my parents’ trying to sway me into a career I don’t end up loving.

I know it sounds unauthentic, but I really don’t care about how much money I earn. I want a job that I cherish and want to do for the rest of my life, and every high schooler should make finding a career very seriously.

Because of the impact social media has done to influence different kinds of people, I was drawn to the production of YouTube videos of big corporations like BuzzFeed or Vogue. I love the fun cut videos of interesting trends that millennials come up with.

But I can’t decide what I want to do still. I should be happy with my five acceptance letters and celebrate for the next chapter of my life, but I can’t be satisfied because I’m uneasy about my future.

Hopefully, after some extreme research and self-reflecting, I can come to a conclusion on May 1 and decide on one college to go to.

So, senior year isn’t as academically stress-free as all the iconic movies like “High School Musical 3” and “Grease” make it out to be — only if you care about your future.